So I'm bored .. I guess I'll write alittle something in case Mer and Nate decide to check mine.

I just worked out so I'm one tired girl. I'm actually doing really good with the "working out" part...but eating..not so much. If I really buckle down and eat like I should be.. I think I'd really be doing good with losing weight. So this is my second day of eating well and I'm doing pretty good so far. I want to be 20 lbs lighter by April 1st..that's my deadline. I want to lose 30 lbs altogether but I really need to stay on track. I just really want to look good in a bikini this year..that's really what I'm going for.

So I'm getting really really stressed about clinicals and going out into the real world. I have to go scan at Akron General on weds because they want to "get on the ball" if they are going to hire me. It would be nice to work there because I already have over 2 years there and I just want to get the hell out of transportation. The only thing I'm worried about is that I'm not confident at all with my vascular stuff. I don't know how to do it and that's really ALL they do there. The HR lady told me that you have to be registered in ABD, physics (of course), and vascular. I wanted to find a place where they had a vascular lab so I wouldn't have to do any of it, but it is nice to know it because there are a lot more opportunities and higher pay if you are registered in it. So basically, I'm not getting my hopes up. I know I scan fairly well with ABD but that really doesn't do much if you don't know vascular. I hope I'm just getting burnt out from the program because I've really been thinking about if this is really what I want to do. I'm pretty confident with scanning, but I feel like I don't know what the hell I'm talking about. I don't know, it's hard to explain.  Ultrasound is so much harder than people think it is. YOU are doing the scan, not a machine.. it sucks.

Ok, enough bitching. I just wanted to get that off my chest because it's ALL I've been thinking about lately. I'm so stressed. I hate growing up.

Man..it's been awhile since I've updated...but I don't think that anyone looks at my entry except for my sister and Nate...so I don't know what the use is. But whatever.

So nothing has really been going on. My break has been sooo nice from school. I have not done anything this entire time, except work a couple days here and there..and it's been AWESOME. I've never loved sitting around the house so much. But, it is getting kind of old. I am ready to go back, but I"m just nervous because I'm almost done with school. 16 more weeks and I'm done. I just think that is the craziest thing ever!

Yesterday my sister and I drove up to Parma to drop off some stuff at school. It was fun. We were singing our "sirius love" songs. Then today I needed to test drive up to Metro because I'm a dumbass and am horrible with directions. So she came with me for that too. The highway drive isn't too bad..but once you get off the highway it's soo crazy. All these crazy turns and the ghetto and construction..I almost had a breakdown. Then once you get into the hospital it's even worse. It was horrible. Not to mention there are pigeons in the parking deck that FLY AT YOUR HEAD when you're walking. There were 2 that almost hit us. We were screaming, it was hilarious. Dumb nasty birds. So then on the way back we couldn't find how to get on the highway, so we had to turn around in this ghetto apartment building. But we finally found it. I'm so glad she was there with me because I seriously would have been freaking out if she wasn't. I had to blast on the air conditioner cause my pits were really sweatin by the end of that whole ordeal. Once we got back on the highway everything was fine...the "sirius love" went back on and we were singing our little hearts out.

Today was soo nice outside! This weather is amazing. Today is was 50 degrees, but raining..but tomorrow is supposed to be 50 and sunny. I can't believe it's January. The only thing that scares me is this is how it was last year then it ended up snowing till April. That's Ohio weather for ya. I'm making a bet though that once I start back to school and clinicals...and I'm driving an hour..we'll have all the horrible winter weather...how much do you want to bet me? It's almost guaranteed.

Ok, that's about enough for now. I hope to go out tomorrow. Preferably downtown for some yummy martini's...but I know it's probably not going to happen because my friends are jackass's. But school starts next week (actually it's supposed to start Friday but I'm a rebel and I'm not starting till Monday...hahahahaha) so I only have a couple more precious days to get totally wasted. Hopefully my belly will let me. It hasn't been treating me too well lately. I haven't been able to take shots..(gasp) I know, isn't it horrible?

Ok, I'm done now. There's my update NATHAN! I think this conversation is about over...

So yea, it's been awhile. Hey, I've been a pretty busy girl. Some updates::

I got an A on my mid-term. So excited about that one.

Thanksgiving was WONDERFUL, with the exception of hearing the horrible news of Nick and Jessica...

Nathaniel came over so that was nice. He is FINALLY opening up in front of my parents instead of always acting so shy and like he's going to crap his pants if they make eye contact with him...

He also came over to my grandma and grandpa's..which I almost crapped my pants about. He did very well too. I'm proud of him.

Let's see...I had a bad drinking experience 2 weekends ago. I hate when I can't remember what I did, or said for that fact. I guess I was snapping my fingers at the bartender..then I signed my name like a 5 year old, and threw the receipt at her because "they put all these drinks on my tab which weren't mine..."... when in fact they all were...I just DIDN'T remember buying them. I'm so stupid. Then I saw Lou and said Hi to him...then my sister said "wasn't the weird we saw Lou!" and I said..." Lou? I didn't see him... I don't know what you are talking about.." Stupid, stupid girl. I needed to have a fun night because I had a week of HELL at clinicals and with school...but I was alittle too out of control.

So hm, I think that's about it. I haven't been working out like I need to be. I really need to start cracking down on myself. I used to be so good at that. So I'm really going to try ..again! So today, I did one of the programs on the treadmill. 40 minutes ::2.68 miles... That program kicks my ass every time! That's what got me into shape 3 yrs ago. Man, I can't believe its been that long. Dang...

So I haven't done crap since Monday. Monday I ran at Sand Run and it felt sooo nice to be outside again. The weather was beautiful and it really made me realize how much I love running outside. Screw treadmills. So, I ran pretty far I think. Running outside and running on the treadmill are so different. Your body may be conditioned for the treadmill, but not outside, and vice versa. So I think I did pretty well for not running outside, on a trail, for a long time. I ran for about 15 minutes, then walked alittle, then ran for another 10, then walked alittle..so after everything was said and done I actually did all that for an hour. My legs felt like bricks afterwards, but the next day I wasn't sore at all (surprisingly). So since then, I haven't done jack shit. I've had a rough couple of days at clinicals so I'm just exhausted when I get home. I want to go to bed right now but I NEED to do some sort of exercise tonight so I need to stay awake

So in other news- I got a 93 out of 100 on my midterm!!! YAYYY!!! I never thought I was going to do that good. After I took it I was pretty confident but then I looked over my notes and started realizing some of them that I made stupid mistakes on and I started freaking out. So I'm so happy. I have an A in there right now..an A!! I'm in shock. Thinking of last semester on how bad I did and how I was barely passing...its amazing. I think I just "get" the baby stuff better than last semester and it also helps having this be my only class to really focus on. So hopefully I can do good on my case study and get an A for my final grade...I would definitely be getting wasted after that news!

So I'll write more when I work out....but for now I need to go eat some din din that my sister cooked for the fam...yes, you heard me right, she actually cooked for us. Shocking, I know...but just brace yourself...

Well I haven't updated in awhile. On Thurs I ran for 10 minutes and did some speed walking for 25 minutes and did 2.56 miles. Friday I didn't do jack squat and Sat I ran up on the farm road for a half hour so I'm not sure how much I actually did. Sunday...I had to work and I walked a lot there so I always count that as some sort of exercising. Hey, pushing people around and walking all day is some good exercise in my book because you really don't even realize it's exercise.

So now today I need to do some major running. I really need to start buckling down because I am doing good...but not good enough. I want to kick some ass in this marathon.

So today is my day off from work and clinicals and I took my midterm last week...so I have nothing to study! It's awesome. I do need to start writing my case study report though because I don't want to wait till the last minute to do that. I"ve put it off long enough and now its due in like 3 weeks..I think...

So yea,  now I'm updated. I'll write again when I'm finished working out..suuuckas. Peace out.